Some People...

Hey all, how's it goin?

I wanna start off by saying that since I've worked in Retail, I've never really understood why people have to be so darn ignorant and impolite. I serve customers on a daily basis, I often find myself wondering why on earth they have to come in and have a go at you for everything under the sun, when all your trying to do is your job. If I went into their work and started abusing them and "their" company I'd more than likely get thrown out of the building, but because we're there, does that instantly give people the right to be horrible? Even down to the nitty gritty, like saying hello is seemingly too much of a chore for some people...

Okay I've had a moan about ignorance, so now I shall endeavour to talk about something less pointless ;)

So today I woke up feeling a little better than yesterday, my mood today started off rubbish but got better! I've found out that I'm prone to mood swings, I can either be really sad or really happy, never a happy medium. Something a lot of people don't know about me is that I'm very selfish; I think only my family know that all too well.

I'm looking at my birthday, my 23rd birthday, coming up before too long (June 25th) I'm thinking about the passing years, wondering where my teenage years went, of the days when I used to say "I can't wait till my 18, I can do whatever I want." From my own experience, life suddenly speeds up once you hit 21, heck I'm saying this and I'm only 23 nearly!

I don't think I'll do ote for my birthday this year, not really in the mood, well not at the moment, due to unforeseen complications (but in a way thankful complications) my birthday falls on my day off, phew! There's nothing more weirder than telling everyone it's your birthday on your day in work!

I've grown closer to my online friends tonight, had a real laugh with them, something I hardly ever get a chance to do, not because of real (away from the computer) issues, just that I have other stuff to do online that takes up quite a bit of my time!

I feel like I'm writing in my diary at the moment, this isn't meant to read like a live journal! Take pity on me I'm new :)

I'm planning on meeting up with a friend soon, someone who I've tried to keep in contact with as much as I can, but sometimes life throws you a double headed penny and you have to make do. Although sometimes I wonder if it's not just me, a lot of my friends have lives now, have moved out of home and have or either planning on having children or are just happy going along at their life and see what happens. It's hard now to see where I fit into the big scheme of things, whether God has a plan for me or if I'm just sent here to spend my days making other people happy whilst I drift aimlessly in and out of others lives?

I'm not fussed, I like being single, I like the easiness of living at home with my parents, but I know one day I'm going to have to move on, 'grow up' if you will, I think my complete lack of self confidence holds me back, the feeling of 'this is it Cat, your on your own' kind of thing.

I've had my fortune read several times, they all plan big futures, with late loves and a few children...I wonder sometimes about love, about having a guy and settling down to start a family.

I think this is a good spot to cut it off, take care ya'll xx


Currently listening to: Stay - Shakespeares Sister

Here we go...

So this is my first ever Blog, straight from the Blogging pits of Blog-dom. I'm sat here, really a little unsure of where to start, I'm not used to writing down my feelings or what have you, so I figured I'd just start off with a little bit about why I created this.

So I was sat here today thinking long and hard about stuff that's going on in my life right now, things I seem to not be able to share with my closest friends, even my family. I wonder sometimes about life, in fact I do it quite regularly it's one of my down falls I'm affraid, analyzing every single detail of my life, then making myself depressed about it.

But I keep looking up, keeping smiling and plodding along.

It's that what brought me here, what made me want to make my own Blog, so I could express myself to anyone, anyone who was willing to listen. So hopefully this will be a regular thing, I'll post a couple of thought's here or there, maybe someone out there will read them.

Let's just see how it goes...