This may be quite long, depending on how quick I can type, according to Facebook not very quick lmao. I did one of those typing applications the other day, they told me my speed was 23 words per minute with 93% accuracy, hmm.
Although you guys know very different, I have this permanent typo stuck in my fingers, I blame my nails. :D
Anyway, apologies for the lack of updates just lately, I've had Internet issues with my Broadband provider which took two weeks to fix! I swear these companies expect you to pay out and when you do you think your paying for this great service but in actual fact I think some big wig sits there and laughs at your stupidity! Safe to say mom had words with them otherwise I'd still be Internet-less today. Urgh I give up on commercial brands.
Of course the main reason for lack of keeping you informed was that I spent most of my time WITH you for real. I had my pre booked holiday at the end of September, it was awesome, two weeks of complete bliss...To not not be at work was lovely, I think it suits me I should do it more often lol :)
Part of me wants to b e a mommy for that reason, is that selfish? Or maybe just the fact some days I can be extremely lazy! But don't we all have those days? I've become a lot more active just recently...Which is kind of a good feeling, seeing as I spent a heck of a lot of time behind a computer screen for a heck of a long time!
I went to the hospital to have my first appointment with the "Endocrine" Clinic the other day, had all the usual tests done before speaking with the Doctor himself who was actually very mean! He had a really bad attitude problem and to be honest I'm dreading going back to see him in January. He put me on these tablets "Metformin." I have to take three a day but I had to build up to that gradually, started off taking one a day for a couple of days then two a day for a couple of days, then three a day until I go back to see him.
I'm not sure what he's hoping they'll achieve, but we'll see how that goes. Apart from that I've been doing a heck of a lot round the house, trying to take care of Poppy and her fleas - that's the one thing with having a cat they get major flea problems, but thankfully I think we've finally started to cure the problem. You see with Kittens it's so hard to flea control them, they cant really have flea spray or anything because their too young, the vet gave us this spot on thing that you put on the back of her neck, but she's so skittish about having it put on that when we did get it on (I promptly missed and got her shoulder) she licked it straight off which in turn made her sick and urgh you know the rest...
But it's sorted for the most part now, we're trying to control them the best we can. But as ever she's growing and you know what I really don't see it! So many people have told me how big she's getting at what not but the reality of it is, because I live with her she's just the same every day to me.
She was born ironically enough on my birthday and the same day Michael Jackson died so I'm wondering now whether my perfect pussy is the reincarnation of MJ, lol, if she starts doing the dance to thriller, or eyes me suspiciously I'll let you guys know! Wouldn't that be awesome though.... :D
Work has been good, well as good as it can be, work is work after all and I don't think there's one person out there who runs around screaming "Yes! I have 10 hours of work today oh my god I love it!" Although that'd be really funny.
I've noticed just recently that I'm using this blog as more of a diary, then as appose to somewhere where I can share my thoughts and feelings on certain situations and events. I'm not really sure what to say about that other than I'm trying not to turn this into a Emo-Kid's Gothic slasher horror novel, more just me writing down whatever comes into my head at the time.
Another update, I've started wearing my glasses again, mostly to combat the horrible headaches I keep getting. Especially at work, and though I haven't worn them for a long time it's helping a lot with reading and writing both of which I'm doing a heck of a lot of right now.
It feels good to wear them and they are really comfortable, though I'm short sighted so it's no good for me when I'm driving, though I have worn them a couple of times when I'm driving to and from work, but at night they make things worse so I'm gonna stick to keeping them off whilst driving home in the dark from work. Not a good photo but meh. It'll do just for a glance, I havent made a video on here for a while and its starting to get to me, I love writing cos I have more time to find and express my feelings without writing it down before hand for a video.
Like to give some shout-outs though to two people Gem and Sam who both lost loved ones just recently, I've spoken to guys personally about it so you know what I said but you know, just a shout out to let you know where I am if you need me.
On a side note Sam and I are planning "Tour de England" for next year a roadtrip for a couple of days where were gonna hire a car and just travel north hopefully, need to sort out the finer print but you know that'll come, we're not planning the "Tour De England" til July time next year so that'll be something to look forwards to!
Gonna start wrapping this blog post up now as its already way too long, September was...A crazy month for me, as most of you guys know. I planned to start an awesome journey with someone who I loved very much, unfortunately it didnt work, a part of me is glad I found out that before I actually went over there and made a fool of myself, another part of me is sad because I wanted it to be special, I thought he was the one, a part of me still wonders what could have been, but obviously god time or fate or whatever didn't want us to be together and that's cool, I'm okay with that now...To a degree, I know there's someone out there even more special that maybe I'm supposed to be with and that's why I wake up eah morning with a smile, knowing that one day I'll be really happy.
I cried a couple of times during the time off, thinking of it all, but for once I didnt break down into a sob, I actually started to realize that I'm a really special girl with a wonderful personality, I have so much to offer and when that time comes it'll be better than maybe I imagined it would be and not having to be travelling half way across the world to be told where to go.
I'm happy now, I've discovered my friends and family are really important to me, they were there for me when it all went down the pan and they've stayed there through it all, that to me is more special than any relationship with any man. I hope you guys know where I am if you need me.
So that's about it, I'll see most of you guys either online or out in the vastness of England, so keep me updated people I love you guys take care until next time... :)
£> xxx All my love xxx <3
Currently Listening To: Candyman - Christina Aguilera
