I know it's not quite New Year yet but I couldn't see myself writing another post before Friday so I thought I'd get in early! I hope you've all been keeping well, I've had a fairly miserable Christmas, slept most of it down and out with the flu! No it wasn't swine flu before your little minds get a tickin'!
Just one cold on top of another, thought I'd make it for Christmas but then blasted down at the last hurdle with one heck of a cold, funnily a friend at work got ill the same day I did, just goes to show there must be something going round!
All in all though Christmas 09 was a lovely day, spending time with the kids, bro and and Gem did me good!
As a present from my brother and Gem, I got a ticket to go see (with them) live in Manchester: Peter Kay! I absolutely adore Peter Kay he makes me CRY laughing, I'm really looking forward to it, so much that I screamed when I opened the envelope Christmas Day.
I got a gorgeous IPod touch as well as docking station which gives me the extra edge to blast my music first thing in the morning before turning on my PC. So all in all I didn't do too badly. I'm really glad this year is coming to a close, for some reason its been the year of death, lots of soldiers killed in Iraq of course, Celebrity death is another, thankfully, I haven't had anyone I know personally die, so no funerals for me this year, although some days I have wondered.
Dad's doing a little better now, better than the last time I wrote of him, he went to have an "Endoscopy" today which in English means a camera down the throat, thankfully we got the news back that dad didn't have cancer in his stomach which was of much relief to us all I can tell you! He did however have a "Hernia" where he'd previously had one, 5cm in length so they said, they took some biopsy whilst they were in there too so he's a bit sore at the moment.
I had to admire his strength though, both me and my sister agreed we'd have to be fully knocked out before anyone shoved anything down our throats!
So that's the update-age on the family! So bar being ill and Christmas I simply didn't have the chance to update you all over that period! I was really busy working and what not, although this year work seems to have been really slow, maybe that's a sign of the times and the economic downturn, I'm not really that into politics to care.
I've come to realise the last few weeks that Dean Martin is my ideal man. I think a lot of girls (or rather women) have said that over the years. But I don't mean him personally, I mean in the personality type trait, he's the bad boy macho Itlaiano-show case nut that fits with my wacko-outrageous, weird, sarcastic icky sticky lady type. I have taken a large interest in his music, favouring some of his songs on Youtube, my fave at the mo would have to be this:
His voice sends shivers down my spine, I seriously get the chills of "perfection" when I hear him sing. I was having a lengthy discussion with a relative/friend of mine I used to work with long ago (when I was young and innocent) the other day. She couldn't believe someone like me of my age and "trend" would be interested in someone like him.
Basically if I'd lived in a different time and place I'd more than likely have done anything to make a move on this smooth talking sweetheart. He's perfect and the fact that he's so im-perfect is what makes him perfect! Work that out :)I could talk about Dean Martin for a long while yet but I know most of you will be nagging at me at some point in our joint Yahoo con-flabs that I'll have to smooch you all into high heavens! So I'll move swiftly on, probably best as I'm trying to not rabbit on too much!
I've been reading a book I got for Christmas (actually I need to do a call out for Kudos to a mega awesome super friend of mine Samantha (my chic!) who introduced me to this book after we discovered we were both into the same thing!) It's a book about a lady who can speak with the dead, it's about communicating with Spirits and knowing (in the writers mind) what her interpretation is (whether it be true or not) of what the afterlife tells her happens when we die.
Of course it's not just covering death and spirits she goes into great detail about other things such as dealing with greif and how grief doesnt have to nessicarily mean that you've lost someone who has died, you can also grieve for the loss of jobs, loss of pets and even loss of a realationship. I think that last part was what made me want to buy the book more than the other parts (although reading it I dont actually want to get to that part yet I want to read more about the afterlife parts!) In the book it describes stages of grief, and I physically can now say I have reached number 10 (I think it's 10 don't quote me!) I'm one step away from the last stage which is moving on, and continuing with my life's purpose. She basically explains that before we arrived here we chose what our life was going to be like, we discussed our life's plan with God and the angels. It really is an amazing read and even though I havent reached the part about realationships yet, I'm happy to say I made it this far on my own and I'm really proud of myself for how I handled myself.
A friend asked me the other day, "I saw on Facebook you'd joined the group "a new year a new start"" "Yeah?" I replied wondering what her response would be. She took a breath, put her arm round my shoulder and cuddled me a bit. "I'm really proud of you Cat."
I didn't know it at the time but she explained it to me a couple nights ago over late night txt-ing in bed. She'd been with me for most of the complete shitty days where I'd hated myself, where I'd been so low over loosing someone I loved, she'd been through most of it with me, she said she was proud of me because she couldn't have done what I did.
I explained to her that if I hadnt had the most amazing friends and family like her I wouldnt have got that far! And that by joining that group on Facebook I was making a statement, next year everything that happened this year, all the "bad things" and the "terrible things" were gonna be forgotten, I wasnt going to sit back and watch my life go by anymore, I'm my own person and I'm a wonderful, caring smart young lady with a heck of a lot to offer, I know next year I'll find my second attempt at mister right, because there's no way I'm spending another year alone...
She txt back.... :D
Who knows, maybe it's on the cards right now? Keep you posted peeps :D
Have a good un and don't get too drunk!!!
£> Captain Caticus Sparrow <3
xxx xxx
P.S I take it back Dean Martin IS my ideal man, personailty and all...*Day dreams*
