Climb Ev'ry Mountain

Hey all how's it goin'?


Started to make a video tonight but I'm way too tired to be messing about with it, it's been a looong day at work today. So here I am again writing this up, scoring one more brownie point for the ol' "write a new post" section.

It's been a hectic past few weeks really to say the least, one thing or another keeps happening to make this sail boat either sail smoothly or twist and turn in a horrible messy storm.

Got a few things on my mind right now, few things I wanna talk to someone about but I dunno who or even more importantly - how. The last little while, dad's not been his usual self, every day when I get home from work I'm updated with the events of what's been going on with 'dad' today.

Don't get me wrong I love my dad more than anything in the world, but when I hear people telling me - even when he tells me himself that he's getting forgetful, that he's feeling more and more down and drained and that he's worried about his health, his frame of mind...I cant help but try and block it out.

That's the trouble with me, whenever I get a problem or a problem occurs that could be really serious I block it out and force myself to believe and sometimes others that it's not happening. I don't want to think about the prospect that one day my dads gonna die - who does? But it's like every one's...I dunno I really don't. I need to talk with my brother.

To try and lift his spirit's a bit I've booked me and him a day out at the Nottingham Trent Arena to see "Walking With Dinosaurs". I know he watched the program on BBC one and Discovery when it was on and he really enjoyed it, the live action version with Live Science Dinosaurs that are actually LIFE size seemed a great pick me up, but I'm starting to wonder if he's really looking forward to it or whether he's just saying it to make me happy.

I'm gonna try and get round to see my brother tomorrow night after work, have a chat with him, see what he says....

I'm really looking forward to my holiday in September, can't wait to get away from everything, it'll be a fantastic experience I know that for sure. My brother's birthday is coming up on the 11th June, I know what I want to get him - Guitar Hero Drum Set for the PS3, but getting hold of it is another matter, it's impossible to get a hold of and like usual I have left it to the last minute.

Apart from all the downers of this post I'm feeling okay, stable, I'm learning new steps every day and I'm becoming my own person once again, I think I'll be glad when I have the results of this next blood test.

Once again my white blood cells were high, another blood test is scheduled for June 22nd and hurrah June 23rd I'm off to the hospital and I know their gonna do more blood tests - maybe for different reasons but they might pick up on it as well, who knows.

I just want answers, what's wrong with me, it's my body don't I have a right to know? Hmm...

Anyway I'm following that rainbow right now, looking for my dream, hoping after each hope that the second half of this year will be much better than the first.

On a lighter note you'll be happy to know I passed my "think 25" training today at work whooo nothing special but I thought I'd mention it.

I ask you keep my dad in your prayers - I really could do with some support somehow on that subject and that would be more than grateful.


Thanks guys - speak soon. Take care xxx



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