It's been a long few days, I seem to have run out of energy quicker than usual this week and I keep getting headaches, maybe I should go to bed earlier? lol
Apologies for my ranting in my previous post, I seem to go off one and can't stop myself. Well plans are in motion now for that meet up with my friend I talked about, (she'll know who she is if she's reading this.) We're set up for a night of Titanic watching, eating pizza and having a good old laugh, I'm really looking forward to it, I spend way too much time alone these days.
I want to ask though, why is it you can have a totally random thought right when you least expect it? For some reason, a friend of mine popped into my head today; he died of cancer a while back, but he just came to me off the cuff and completely unexpected. I miss him, of course, but we were not really that close, we had a few laughs and on the long drive to work would talk about everything under the sun, he taught me a few of life's lessons.
Onto a lighter note, England football. I watched the England Vs USA match the other day, I was bored at first, poor quality, not much to say for their style, but they did pick up (glad about that) and went on to win 2-0. I really think our England team get's it easy, other teams seem to spend so much more time training, we seem to think the 'relaxed don't wear them out' approach works best, but clearly it does not. 'Big up' to John Terry, I think he's doing well this year.
I've got right into 90's music this week, Scatman John, Eurodance and even sinking as low as listening to Vengaboys and S Club 7 (??) Must be one of them weeks I figure. I never really liked this music when I was growing up; I was more into watching TV and messing about in my room or with my friends than I was with music. But then my brother was dead set into rave, or trance or whatever it was, so I guess it kind of filtered through leaving a mark on my brain somewhere so that I could say now that I DO like this music. It's funny how certain things happen, how fate leads you to where you have to be, was it fate that I'm sat here tonight? If I had chosen a different path in my life, gone against the grain, made different choices; would I be sat here right now writing this?
I am a strong believer in fate and what goes around comes around. I'm also a believer in God, surprisingly enough my faith lies somewhere inside of me, makes me think about....Well everything really, I question if what I do is right a lot, I blame myself for all the things I do which I know are wrong, though I don't show it, not to a single person, I bottle it all up and make myself hurt emotionally but in private.
I'm getting deep and angsty again, sorry about that. For all the fate, for all the pain and for what I do go through personally, I do go through a lot of good and quite a few of my friends have pointed this out to me, and I DO believe them. I HAVE had so much fun, mostly with my online friends, maybe it's because with them I can be me without having to worry about the after effects or pleasing anyone or whatever...I'm just me.
Take care people, see you next time!
Currently listening to: Scatman John - Scatman's world
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