The Good, The Bad And The Ugly

Have you ever asked yourself what bullying and intimidation truly is? I decided to look it up in the dictionary:


v. bul·lied, bul·ly·ing, bul·lies

1. To treat in an overbearing or intimidating manner. See Synonyms at intimidate.
2. To make (one's way) aggressively.


in·tim·i·date (n-tm-dt)
tr.v. in·tim·i·dat·ed, in·tim·i·dat·ing, in·tim·i·dates

1. To make timid; fill with fear.
2. To coerce or inhibit by or as if by threats.


Big up to dictionary.com for the result :)


I used to think it was the one person you were most afraid of doing something to you, you didn't like. But I see its more than that, just lately I've learnt the hard way. I cant go into too much detail, save to say it's happening to me right now.

Kind of feel like it's my two cents for a lot of things that I've probably done wrong lately. I'm not really sure how to explain how I feel right now, fear is a big issue and yeah I am feeling pretty down with it all. I don't like seeing anyone get bullied or intimidated let alone myself.

He does scare me, he does make me wonder what on earth he's going to do next, but I cant DO anything about it, not because I don't want to but because I guess I'm too scared of what he'll do if I did.

Right now I'm living in the shadow of him and I just am so lost...confused and afraid. I really don't know what I'm going to do or how its going to end but...is there a but?

I pray that somewhere out there I find the strength to overcome him, to rid myself of the constant drama that unfolds every time I see him, but I don't like my chances, with how I am right now he could push me into the deepest darkest pit and to hell I'd probably stay there.

Sorry for the morbid-ness of this post but at least I am (even the slightest step) closer to freedom by admitting (even somewhere) that I am being bullied and intimidated, maybe this is my first step towards freedom.


Take care all xxxxxx



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